Voicemail

‘Leave a message”

-I know its late and I figured U wouldnt answer. Part of me thought that she would pick up, saw my number in your call log, while U slept or was in the shower. Maybe it took its toll and made her decide to confront me…whatever. Look, i dont have a lot of time and Im not callin back. Dont call me no more. I cant take this, “U and me friend shit.” U used to know me. Every part of me. U dont now. Didnt notice how I cry when I hear your voice on the phone? How I pause when U say u miss me so? I cant take it! I fight myself not to call, this female emo shit that bugs me. Who r U to have this hold on me? What day was it that i allowed U to have me completely? U should know this is wrong. Keeping up this act with me. How did U get so clever? Able to juggle all these lies and banter with her and myself. Or am i the only one that U do this to? Look just stop calling me, U want me then I’m here. Not waiting but waiting. Not going to drop everything, just a few things. Not going to fall back in quickly, just in a couple days.. U having problems, then deal with them. Im not the friend to share that with. I’m the policegotmecomegetmeoutimhurtingneedtotalkwhatamidoingwithmylifetoughlovemerightnow- friend. Not the mygirlcantgethershittogetherimtornimissyourfacebutdonttrustmyselfcauseistilllovemissyou- friend. Im too little for that. Take this in and remember that if U dont want me dont talk to me. Im serious. U fucking with my mind and I realize, I gotta let U go. No contact, no nothing. U left, Me…FOR HER in fact! So stop…Stop, this, today..Im flippin the switch to “Off”..for real this time..you cut and Im gone–

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